anger, life, pain, Poetry, Uncategorized

Trauma Timeline

Synapses popping
Reactive
Emotional mashing
Internal thrashing
Memory flashing
Self image bashing
Stopping
Annoyed
Willpower waning
Synapses popping
Repeating
Emotional draining
External straining
Hating
Pushing
Protecting
Enclosing
Defending
Fencing
Pent up
Wound up
Broken up

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anger, art, Childhood, introspection, life, pain, philosophy, Poetry, relationships, romance, Uncategorized

Let Love In

I don’t know how to be loved
Or find affection outside of romance
I don’t know why I have never
Noticed quite how afraid I am
Of love that is offered to me
And now I see how operatically
I only let one channel reach me
When I am honest and viewing this
I sympathize with myself
And finally acknowledge how
I am so starved that I am dying
I am alone behind a moat I have built
And no wonder I am hurting
But now I am looking right before me
And as I try to and accept love around
I am fumbling and unsure
And so ambivalent running back and forth
I am timid and flinching
And I am having to be brave